I’ve been really testy lately, really grouchy, like this past week. I just keep getting annoyed with everyone and everything and it’s really weird because some of the people I thought I wouldn’t get tired of I am, and the people who I thought would get on my nerves first once I reached this mood aren’t really bothering me at all. I always feel even shittier afterwards, when I realize that what I just said was supremely bitchy, but I can never really get myself to stop either, because I really am genuinely annoyed and frustrated. I don’t know. Ugh. I don’t feel like doing anything. I don’t feel like going anywhere or being with anyone but yay sucks for me cuz I don’t have a single. I just need to lock myself up in a room or something and get over whatever this is. I mean, I knew it was bound to happen. Maybe it’s just a lack of sleep. Maybe I just need some time to decompress, away from everyone else, and some people just don’t seem to freaking get it. I think that’s another point that just insists on driving me even further to my insanity. That some people just don’t GET that I can’t see a person every fucking day of my life and not get tired or pissed at them. I just can’t. Unless they’re family, in which case I’m comfortable with just telling them how it is and saying, “Stop that, you’re fucking annoying me” or whatever. I don’t know. It’s just a thousand times easier and it’s driving me insane because I just need to be alone. Please. For a day. Or two. So maybe Jake and Adam’s Life Sciences professor was right, about how we wouldn’t usually be nice to anyone we didn’t know unless we were somehow related to them…

Hm. I miss my family. Good thing they’re coming down tomorrow