The more I think about it, and you, the more pissed off I get. I try to stop myself from having these thoughts, from thinking this way, but it’s so damn hard because there’s so much about it and about you that goes against my core values that define me as a person, that it’s just something I can’t continue to push aside and ignore.

I don’t really know what to do about it either, because in the same way that my core values define me, the traits in you that piss me off are what make up you, and I’m trying to understand that and be more open to it but it’s so damn hard sometimes because seeing you, or anyone, acting this way is like yanking incessantly at my last strand of self-restraint, making me cling to my tongue and wind myself and my opinions back inwards, grind my teeth and bear it because I am not you, and I cannot define you, no matter how much I wish I could help in doing so.