Winter Break is Ending

Wow. As I was thinking about what to title this entry, the line that came to mind was, “Summer’s ending.” I am clearly losing my mind. Anyways, Winter Break is ending, and I don’t want to go back, even though I am excited about my Korean class. It makes me giddy. Because it makes me think of Big Bang.

I really don’t have a good reason to be posting here, actually. I’m just waiting so I can go to Borders and buy more books before I leave tomorrow – 30% off! I just thought I’d share this picture in the meantime:

I stayed up last night making a T.O.P wallpaper for myself, and I am in the process of thinking about a T.O.P layout, which would mean that I have to leave WordPress.com to put it up, so I’ve set up another account for me elsewhere where I can install WordPress again and continue this blog. I’m pretty tired of the standard template layouts here, to be honest. I’m never really satisfied, and I think that photoshopping is something that I’d like to get back into. So look forward to that.

I’m leaving tomorrow! And mourning the loss of my free time to read, gah. I actually feel like reading a good fictionpress story right now, to be honest. I also started writing a fanfic… but I doubt it’ll go anywhere (three guesses who it’s about). The problem with me and writing is that ideas weave in and out of my head but the inspiration for one solid story never stays long enough to get me anywhere.

Friday Five Catchup

My weekdays are all messed up. Yesterday was Monday but I thought it was Sunday. I’m totally aware of the dates, but not the days, which is kind of weird. Isn’t it usually the other way around? Well, the only reason why I’m writing in here is because I haven’t decided what I’m going to read next. Last night I actually went to sleep after I finished a story, instead of stopping in the middle of a story, so I woke up today (at 3:15….) and decided to go shopping instead.

Anyways, I thought I should do this friday five. It seemed appropiate, considering what I’ve been doing all of break.

Books!

1. Do you enjoy reading? “I read like I breathe.” -my fp profile
   
2. What is the first book you remember reading? That was forever ago… Baby Sitters Club? No… some random book for school I think
   
3. Who is your favourite author? What a question… I have no idea, I can’t decide.
4. What is your favourite book? What a question… DUDE. Why can’t I answer any of these? Well okay. On fp, I LOVE LOVE LOVE Sentiment Lost by Tijan, W is for WHAT?! by Lulai, Jilted by serako, Six Feet From Paradise by Jennifer D Allen, Queen of Glass by Sarah J Mass. Actually published (though QoG is to be published so you see my dilemna) I like Cross My Heart, Hope to Spy by Allie Carter, The Kite Runner by Khaled Hossieni, Slave to Sensation by Nalini Singh, The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen, 1984 by George Orwell, and on and on and on. (No Twilight included, thank you tres muchos)
5. What is the last book you read and the first you’ll read next? Last physical book: Visions of Heat by Nalini Singh, last fp story: Chasing Charlie by Katie Saychiadu. I’m thinking of reading Caressed by Ice by Nalini Singh (mainly so I can proceed onto the next books in the series and buy them before I go back to school) as a physical book, and maybe Unfinished Business by Maeven on fp.

It’s kind of obvious what I’ve spent the last 2.5 weeks doing. Lol. I’m kind of a nerd. Haha. Whatever. <33333 I wonder if I’ll have time to read once school starts back up again. I hope so. I’ll probably make time though, knowing me, haha. Oh okay, and one more (see, I’m behind. I’ve just been reading).

1. What decade did you attend/are you attending high school or college? Uh… this decade. Does this make me sound young? The zeros? Lol. And a little of the teens.
2. What clothing fashion from that time are you glad/do you wish went out of style? Ummm I don’t know. I kind of love/hate the whole Uggs thing because they’re so darn cute but so darn expensive and impractical, especially with me being in LA and all. I really have no excuse to buy them, so I don’t, but I still want them I’m trying to think back to any other fashions from this decade, but really. A decade is a really long time.
3. Do you still listen to the music from your high school/college years on a regular basis? Well, considering I’m in college, and just graduate from high school, yes. I’ve recently gotten back into Korean music, so I guess I went back to that, which started in 8th grade. And I still listen to the same American music, though I’m trying to expand my scope into more rockish now too, because although I don’t know much about it, I enjoy a lot of those songs too.
4. What hairstyle/hair color did/do you wear during high school/college? I’m pretty okay with the hairstyle I have now. Sometimes I wish I grew my hair out longer, but my hair gets pretty long already so Idk.
5. What was/is “the cool thing to do” while in high school/college? Uh… I have no idea. Hm. Maybe this is why I’m not “cool.” The “cool” thing to do is go and get drunk. Apparently.

Dun! Dun! Dun! Dun nun nun nununununNUN! I have Big Bang Sunset Glow stuck in my head. I think I’m in love. *insert smiley face with hearts as eyes here* Sah-woonnn! (I wonder if anyone is getting this reference… hint: it relates to the first set of Friday Fives I just did)

The (My) Problem with the Twilight Saga

So I just finished Breaking Dawn, and I figured out slash already kind of knew why I hated the third book, and why parts of the fourth book still bothered me.

Despite what everyone said about this book, I didn’t think it was that bad. Maybe it’s because I hated the third book while everyone still loved it, so I was expecting something a lot worse, or maybe it’s because I was already forewarned about all the spoilers and complaints (which was not my intent; I was quite pissed when it got ruined for me) but I kind of enjoyed this book, despite the fact that the first half of the book was completely spoiled and the second half was kind of predictable. From an eighteen-year-old, die-hard romantic’s point of view, the book was okay.

***SOME BREAKING DAWN SPOILERS***

I still hated Jake. I don’t understand why an entire section had to be dedicated to him, really. I don’t even really think that Jacob is even really necessary to any of the books except for the second. I think my main problem with Jacob is that he’s like this character that Meyer just tried to throw in and make suddenly important as an afterthought, when she decided to make a sequel. And then she became obsessed with him. Much like Bella, she just could never let him go, and it annoys me so SO much because I always feel like Jacob is just this unwanted (by me, maybe not Bella, or even Edward) person who’s not really needed and is just annoying, pushy, and really selfish and self-centered. He’s very irrational. He doesn’t think a lot of the time. And he’s just like this annoying kid who won’t go away. I feel like HE was the leech, who just stuck around and complained all the time. I hated how he imprinted on Renesmee and just tagged along, because it felt so often like he was just robbing Bella, Edward, and Renesmee of the family time that they deserved together because their kid grew up. I don’t mind if Meyer wants to let Jacob have a happy ending, move on, and imprint on Bella’s daughter (though it’s weird), but I felt so often like Jacob was just barging in on that obligatory family time that should have been just for Bella, Edward, and their daughter alone. And that’s the main thing that pissed me off about this book.

I agree, I think that Meyer did a good job with the whole vampire sex part, I agree that Bella is like a freaking child herself, who maybe wasn’t all too ready to be a mother at all, but I think the fact that she was a part of a bigger family who helped her raise Renesmee kind of compensated for this a bit. So I’m not really mad about Bella’s pregnancy, or Bella (finally) being turned a vampire, or the happy ending that so many people are complaining about. I just really hate Jacob, and it’s frustrating and annoying because Meyer loves him and can’t let go of him and can’t let him be any lesser of a character than he probably should be. It’s like she decided somewhere along the way that two main characters wasn’t enough; she needed a third, enter Jacob Black.

My main problem with the third book was that Meyer said Bella loved Jacob. Like was in love with him. Jacob said he and Bella were meant to be, if Edward had come, that it was fate and Edward ruined it, but that’s impossible because Edward DID come and so clearly it was fate that EDWARD came and met Bella and it wasn’t Jacob she fell in love with and “chose.” I don’t even really believe that you “choose” who you fall in love with anyway. And Jacob is just annoying, and pushy, and fucking stubbon. And Bella is clingy and really, she deserved that berating from Leah, because truly, she did just lead Jacob on again, and again, and again, and she clung to him because she was selfish and she couldn’t bear to not have his attention. So that’s why I hated the third book, and maybe Meyer recognized some of this and she tried to rectify that in the fourth book. Or maybe that just happened by chance. But the reason why I’m okay/liked the fourth book is because Meyer did redeem herself a little. Edward wasn’t just all too perfect to be true so he didn’t even get jealous or have feelings. (Although I wanted to kill Edward when he started suggesting sharing Bella and having her give birth to Jacob’s kids… are you fucking serious? What the hell was he thinking? Bella would kill him if she knew he even thought about it.) Bella clung but it stopped, sort of. Though she didn’t really mature. And Jacob… well, I still hated Jacob, and he was still annoying, but I think I’ve reiterated my point about that enough times.

I wonder if anyone will read this. I wonder if anyone will kill me for hating Jacob (Kassy might, haha). I still think these books are overrated. Yeah, they’re good, addicting, totally PG-13 (except for maybe some gore. Is suggestion of sex still PG-13?) so I guess I understand their appeal, but people talk about these books like Meyer is the next J.K. Rowling or something. And let’s be honest folks, she’s not. She really isn’t. So please stop acting like Twilight is like the Third Great Awakening or something like that. It’s not.

A Little of Everything

I’m not sure why I feel like blogging so much as of late, but here I am, once again. I decided to do Friday Five.

1. Are you going to school this fall? If not, what was the most recent year of school you completed? I just completed my senior year of high school, so it’s college for me!
2. If yes, what kind of schooling are you doing (middle school, high school, undergraduate, graduate, etc.)? Undergraduateeee
3. Are you someone who enjoys/enjoyed going back to school? Well. I guess I’m kind of that person who moans all year about how summer needs to come but by the end of summer, I’m about ready to go back to school. Except I don’t know this time. I guess I’m excited cuz it’s college and it’s new, but I’m kind of freaked out too, and I kind of like being really anti-social and avoiding certain people like I am now and just reading all day. I know I can’t/shouldn’t do that in college.
4. Do/did you like back-to-school shopping? Why or why not? Not really. I don’t really like shopping, to be honest. My version of liking shopping is clicking around online and finding something. I don’t like the walking aspect of shopping malls.
5. Are/were you a good student? Good in terms of I do my homework? Because I do. But I didn’t always.

Last week:

How many times a day do you…

1. Brush your teeth? Twice. Once when I wake up, once before I go to sleep.
2. Shower? Once.
3. Check your E-mail? Way too many to count, haha.
4. Check LJ? Never.
5. Eat? 1-3 plus snacks.

I finished the books today. I have read a total of 12 books this summer, that I can remember, which is kind of sad because it’s not that many. Maybe 12.5, since I read half of To Kill A Mockingbird, before I had to give the book back to Stephanie. You know what’s a huge pet grammar peeve of mine though? When people don’t put that comma between the last two items of a list, before the and. Like “I went shopping, eating, and sleeping.”

I don’t know. That was so random. I can’t believe I’m about to eat hot stew in this hot hot 95 degrees weather. Ick. I talked to Kassy today! Made my day Back to the books though – they were okay. Not spectactular.

I have this desire to read a really good story on FictionPress now though. Someone go find me such a story

Hitting the Books

I like my current reading pace. I’ve been reading a book a day, every day for the past… I don’t know how many days, but I think my pace is getting faster as well. Before I would take two days to finish books, but now I’m down to less than one. I think I used to read faster before… like way before. Back when I could read Harry Potter 4 in seven hours, or something crazy like that. I guess it’s not really that crazy, because some people read the books I read now in a day in three hours, but I’ve always been a slow reader. I only have the last book of the whole Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants series left. Then I have a book I bought from Half.com for $1 + shipping (good deal, right? And it’s completely brand new too!) and some books I ordered from Amazon that I’m worrying will arrive after I already leave for school. Maybe I should just have them shipped to me down there, but I don’t know my mailing address yet. I should look into that, I suppose. And that pack of books includes………….. dun dun dun dun! The dreaded Breaking Dawn!! Ew. I can’t believe I’m getting it but I know I just have to. Rissa even offered to sell me hers for $10, which is $2.64 cheaper than what I bought it on Amazon for, but I knew I just had to buy my own. It was just one of those things. I just have to read it, even though I already know what’s going to happen, even though I know it’s so awful, I just have to.

I think though after I finish this whole sisterhood business (tomorrow) and after I finish my one other book after that (Saturday), maybe I’ll start flipping through my East Asian book or something. It could be interesting. I’m pretty scared for UCLA. I have this paranoia that I’m going to flat out fail, and I can’t afford to let that happen. Screw rush and all that greek life stuff – I can’t focus on that now. I need to focus on my schoolwork. I figure there’ll be other quarters when I can look into it, or other things I can join and partake in in order to make connections, network, and whatnot. The networking bit scares the shit out of me. Makes me wonder if it’s something I really want to do, but then I guess you’d have to do it with anything you do.

So… I figured out what cheese it is that I have been looking for. Comes out to be about $9 USD, is what all the websites are saying, which is completely ridiculous T_T My mom bought a baguette and this other cheese tonight that’s kind of like the one I want, and it was delicious and I must have eatten at least half the baguette myself, and I’m feeling insanely fat right now. Ick.

I like doing nothing. Nothing = not even meeting people and hanging out and stuff. Honestly, I like lying in bed and reading books all day. I know it’s extremely anti-social but I don’t care. I figure that I won’t really have time slash want to be so anti-social to do that in college, so I might as well kick back and do it now.

College Jitters

Two weeks until I leave for college! I’m not sure how I’m feeling about that, actually. Before, after having returned from Orientation I was so pumped up about it all, so excited to meet new people, start my classes, take courses that actually interest me, and try this whole college thing out. See what it’s all about. But as the date approaches I think the reality of it is really just slamming down onto me like an ocean wave at a magnitude much greater, much larger than I had ever anticipated. Like the fact that I won’t actually be coming back “home” until December, after I finish all my finals. I won’t get to see my dogs, or just feel around for things and always expect to find them. Instead I have to buy stuff that I don’t have but need, I have to buy my food, buy my books, buy my movie tickets, etc. etc. I am going to be so broke!!! Which is why I desperately need a job. My uncle said not to work at ASUCLA since they give you a lot of work, but I guess I figure that a girl’s gotta start somewhere. We’ll see how it goes, I don’t know yet. Last year proved that I now suck at interviews. Ack.

Three out of four of my textbooks for classes have arrived, but the last one I’m waiting on and one of the small books that has already arrived I probably, hopefully won’t be needing. It was a total spur of the moment, freak out kind of thing, but I saw an opening and took it. Next thing I knew, I had switched my English Composition class for Korean 1, and had three more classes added to my weekly schedule (discussions, really) and two courses with the same final day. I freaked out, but I think it’ll all work out in the end, haha.

I’ve slipped into this nasty phase, too, recently. Not really nasty, I suppose, but it’s annoying because it’s making me spend money like crazy. I’m in one of my phases where I can only read books; the stories on fictionpress no longer have the ability to keep me interested enough to continue reading, no matter how much I try. I’m basically inhaling books like they’re air or something. It’s a good thing I have Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and asshole Borders employees who won’t give me discounts on more than one book to slow me down in my buying process. I know it’s got to come to an end, but these books are just so damn addicting. Plus, I like curling up in bed and just reading, and reading, and reading. I guess it seems to a lot of people like I spend so much time on the internet, but really that’s only because I read so much on it. Bring me physical books and I’ll only go online maybe a few hours per day. Which is what is happening now.

There’s not really a point to this blog, but I’m not sure there’s ever really any point to any of my blogs. I guess now I’m stuck debating between whether I should have my concentration in Korea or Japan. I decided to take Korean until I can take Japanese, and I’m thinking that will be spring quarter since I’ll probably place into Japanese 3, based on the textbook they use and they pace they move at, but nothing’s ever for certain. I’m still pretty excited for college, despite the whole reality crashing down visual I painted before. I think one of the things I loved about orientation was that although I had been meeting people only to have to say bye forever to them all summer, finally I was meeting people who I could said confidently, “See you in a month!” or whatever to, and it was totally true. Nothing was a final, absolute goodbye, even though it does kind of suck that my college freshman orientation is forever over. But then again, I wouldn’t change anything about it, so it’s okay. I can’t wait to hang out with the people I met though! Go with Michelle and eat Pizookies (TOTALLY craving one of those right now!) and Diddy Riese. Yum. God, get me down there this instant! Haha. I’m excited. I’m also scared shitless though that I’m going to screw this up, which is something I really can’t afford to do. I can’t stress how important it is that I do well in college.

A Sad Excuse of an Update

I realize I haven’t written here for a while. I’m not sure why, but my life always seems to work out that way. I get into a relationship and then, even though there are probably things to say, and still time to update, and still that little reminder in my head to update every so often, I never get around to actually doing it. I mean, I have even sat down here, opened the window, and attempted to write something, but always end up scrapping it. It’s weird. I have no idea why I do that.

But anyways. Bottom line is, I’m updating now. I’m not really sure why, or what the point is, but I’m here. So I finally figured out how to check my text message status online. Jin showed me a while ago, but I couldn’t actually find it until just like… a few minutes ago and FUCK I am so screwed I wish they had rollover texts or something. I feel really bad too. Apparently the cost of text messages has increased from $0.10 to $0.20, and since I’ve gone over (……….. 302/200 as of 2:30pm, so add a few more to that too…) that’s about $21 we’re looking at, basically. I feel really bad. I feel like I should pay my parents even though they wouldn’t make me, and even though it’s really their money that I’m paying them, but still. Gah. Please no one text me until 06/03/08. Why didn’t I figure this out sooner? Why do people send me pointless text messages?! Why do I send people text messages?! Why do we send text messages at all?! Why don’t we just pick up the damn phone and call each other?! UGHHHHHHHHH I’m so stupid

I FOUND MY JOURNAL!!!!!!!! AS IN, I JUST FOUND IT AND I AM SOOOOO DAMN EXCITED OMGGGGGGGG THANKKK GOODDDDDDDDDDD I was going insane and I just don’t know what I would have done if I never found it. I mean, it’s true, where could it have gone, but still, I was really worried, because although I’ve lost practically everything in the span of my lifetime, I have never once lost ANY of my journals for good, at least since I started keeping them in forth grade. So to lose my journal now… god, I think I would just die. I mean, not die, but I kind of would in a way… it’s kind of like losing a huge huge part of me… I realize that I’m sounding pretty lame right now… oh well, it’s not like many people I know read this anyways, haha. Anyways, the bottom line is, I’m really happy and relieved and every other positive emotion that I found it!

I don’t really have anything else to say (hence, the title of this entry, hahaha, which I chose before I even began it). I really want to find some more things to read. Fictionpress again, but the thing is that I can’t like… I don’t know. Last two stories I read on fp just dragged and dragged and dragged, even though there was nothing really wrong with them to begin with. I’m actually still technically on the epilogue of one of them, and I’ve been stuck there for the past month or so, it’s kind of ridiculous. I need something fresh, something quirky, something addicting. Feel free to comment with any suggestions, or book recommendations too!

And here’s just something funny that I noticed today, for Christine’s entertainment. This is a screencap of my recent sent emails:

Uh oh. Now this entry is going to look unbalanced, if I don’t write something underneath the image as well (I am weird like that). I’m trying to get my pictures from my phone onto my computer via bluetooth, but the bluetooth on my phone must be dysfunctional, because it’s not detecting ANY devices, and my computer is not detecting my phone at all. But it’s really annoying because my picture memory on my phone is now full, and plus, I have some cute pictures on my phone Hehe. Ughhhh PLUS, my phone does not have a micro SD card, nor does it have a slot to use a wire to connect it to my computer. I absolutely hateeee my phone. I mean, not absolutely, like I still love the smooth keypad, and the face that it’s a flip phone, and that I can take pictures with the phone closed, but other than that… yeah…

I can’t believe that June is almost here. I can’t believe that high school is almost over. I can’t believe that I’m graduating in two weeks, and that I’m going to Paris is one month, and that I’m going to college in four months. God… it’s all so weird… and sad. I hate goodbyes. I hate ends. I hate letting go. It was always the hardest part for me… still is. I don’t know if I’ve ever fully let go of anything… (weird cryptic statement that has potential to be over analyzed, but I wouldn’t recommend it because as I begin to over analyze it, like I do with everything else, I myself am questioning its validity).

Fact or Fiction?

Friday Five had some decent questions this week, and although I know it’s no longer Friday, I thought I’d address them anyways…

1. Love at First Sight: Fact or Fiction? Fiction? Fact? I don’t know I guess it’s one of those things you gotta see it to believe it. I would say fiction because if you say you love someone just by looking at them, isn’t that just loving their looks? But then again, maybe you can tell a lot by a person just by looking at them. You know, some people can just sense a person’s characters and the vibes they give off at first sight. First impressions kind of thing… it’s an interesting angle to consider.
2. Fortune Telling: Fact or Fiction? Fiction. Fortune telling, if you think about it, is actually kind of creepy, if it was real. But I just don’t believe that peoples have the powers to do that. Yeah, and vampires exist. God, that would be awesome…
3. Other Life: Fact or Fiction? I’m not sure what you mean by this. Other life as in life on other planets? I actually hate this question, but I believe that it exists. I mean, if we exist on Earth, why can’t others exist on other planets? So awesome…
4. Afterlife: Fact or Fiction? I know I’m Christian so I should believe in Heaven, and I don’t know, maybe I do. But I’ve always thought that the idea of reincarnation would be cool too. I don’t necessarily believe in it, but I think it’d be cool. I think basically all of these things, I don’t really have opinions about, more like wishes. Like I wish this, but I don’t really believe it. And I guess when the time comes for me to actually experience them, then I’ll make my decision.
5. Bigfoot: Fact or Fiction? What’s bigfoot?

Facebook is laaaammeeeee. It’s stupid. It’s not showing my wall posts and it’s not updating other people’s profiles and it’s making me not do my homework, when I don’t even have much homework to begin with. I found this really good story too, but you know when you read stories, and you know when it’s happy and although there are still some other things that will cause potential danger, those things are kind of insignificant in the midst of everything else while the author is still building up to them, and then you just kind of want to STOP reading, like pause, because you want that middle happiness to last just a little bit longer. I’m kind of at that point…

Grown Out of Soompi

Remind me not to go on soompi again. It just angers me. Soompi has turned into a place that has a plethora of the things that I despise. It’s so ridiculous how the most popular fics there are so annoyingly stupid and shallow. It’s really depressing too, because the most “popular” is a reflection of the generation that’s overtaking. It’s a reflection of what people value and like. It’s hard to believe that all those types of fics have completely taken over a site that was once filled with lots of potential, lots of good fics. They’re all still there, I presume, but they’re burried, tossed aside without a second thought because the paragraphs are too long, the words too big. You really have to dig to find them, and it’s just not worth it. All the plots on soompi seem exactly the same, and so do the characters. Why are there all these marriage fics now? I suppose because marriage is like the real deal, the end of it all, the ultimate place people want to be. But the people who soompiers write about are so young. They’re high schoolers, getting married and forced into marriages where alas! They end up being meant for each other. Oh my god. Where’s the toilet? I need to barf. I mean, okay, maybe I’m being a bit hypocritical, because I read and like those stories too. But when they’re all like that… and I’m not exaggerating either. I think in the first two pages of just the incomplete fics, there were at least like 7 fics about marriage… just in the title. All of them were high school. Maybe half of them had to do with social classes (uljjang kind of thing). Really. I don’t know what’s happened to people.

And then I went to the fanfiction discussion thread, because usually at least people are thinking there and beyond just the glitz and glam, let’s see how many replies I can get… but even that made me cringe. I’m going to stop here; I really should, before I begin to directly insult anyone. I mean, not that I haven’t already but…

I managed a full chapter out today. That’s really slow for me, actually, but I’m really proud of what I wrote. I think taking Honors Advanced Exposition has helped me a lot too, even if writing exposition papers is not the same as writing fiction. It’s just that after having been directed to deliberately cut half my essay, I realized that I’m more okay with cutting things that I just realize don’t and won’t fit. I did it in my final draft of that essay (I cut entire paragraphs just because they didn’t further my thesis) and while writing this chapter, I cut entire events that I had already written but once I connected to it, realized that I just didn’t need them and/or they just didn’t fit. Actually, I planned the chapter, like I plan all my chapters, and honestly the characters took me away on a completely different ride. The chapter ended pretty differently than I had anticipated, and bypassed parts that I thought would be included. I’m pretty proud of the result though, and the chapter is a lot longer than my chapters usually are, which I think is for the better. I think a lot of my pride in the chapter comes from the fact that I really did push myself to break past some of my comfort levels and venture into new territory, personalities, and levels of attraction and chemistry that I never really explored before.

So yeah. I’m really really eager to share it all now. But I can’t. I don’t even know what chapter number it will end up being, lol. I’m totally fine with that though. Although I feel a bit disorganized, and it’s driving me a little insane not having everything so neatly separated into their proper categories and such, and having random word files with random chapters in all places of the story, I think this is good for me, and I’d like to believe that the end result will just be that much better. Like people will really be able to experience the full blown effect of every aspect there is to be explored. I also was on ficlics reading something out of the March newsletter about imagery… and it reminded me to consider that factor of my writing as well, so I began trying to add more of that in as well, which I think made a sort of blend of what I was writing before and what I was writing now. Maybe this all is too confusing without having read what I wrote. Oh well. All in good time.

Excited All-around

No Friday Five this week. Not for the lack of questions, but moreso for my own lack of interest. Oh well.

I went to Borders today. Got 3 new books. If you know me at all, you’ll know I’m super excited with this new development!! I am SO ready to ready them. Except that I promised myself I would finish outlining Physics and start outlining Econ. What a bitch. I was thinking about it and I realized that this is probably my only semester that won’t matter. Goodness, that’s sad. I don’t know why I’m still working so hard, but I mean, no one likes to fail! How can you be happy with just a B?

With that said, I am so unbelievably jealous of all the Branson people. Their 2nd trimester has ended so that means NO SCHOOL. So ridiculous. I would say I wish I stayed but I don’t. I’m pretty happy that I transferred. Even if I am stuck here outlining for Physics tests I’m going to fail and Econ tests that… I don’t know. Lol. But the sentence sounded incomplete if I didn’t say something about Econ too – do you know that feeling?

So I decided to take a stab at editing Her Wish, or at least the first nineteen chapters of it. This is not to say that I have suddenly become unlazy and decided to do something to my past stories for a change, but it’s more so because there’s this scholarship where I can submit the first nineteen chapters (which I really combined into 5 chapters…) and possibly win. Or possibly not. Probably not. I feel like my story doesn’t have much meaning and effect unless you have it all. Oh well. Worse comes to worse, I’ll have a lot better first nineteen chapters, lol.

I got my forms for France for ISA! That got me pretty excited. Not that I wasn’t already, haha This entry is all over the place…