내 습관

I need to stop eating chocolate, stop drinking soda, stop getting ice cream and diddy riese and pizookies, stop actually buying stuff from Bruin Café, stop sleeping so late, stop spending so much time on facebook, stop avoiding Tae Kwon Do, stop playing sudoku, and stop procrastinating. I’m sure that I’m forgetting something in there, but I think I pretty much covered most of the bases there.

So by tonight (I realize that this is already going against my I need to stop sleeping so late rule but oh well) I need to finish at least the Westernization part of my essay, reread the China reading, and finish the China reading that was for today’s lecture.

I need to stop thinking about all that I have to do and just do it, as well. Damn it. But that actually requires work >_<

Torn Between Two

I am torn between using my LJ and using my WP as my blog. I don’t know what to do anymore, lol. On one hand, I really like this blog. I like WP a lot – its layout and everything. But the layouts are so ugly. The ones on LJ are ugly too but it’s easy to get your own layout and customize it or whatever. Another thing about LJ is the friends only thing, which is nice, not because I’m paranoid but just because it’s nice to know who’s reading my LJ and who’s not, and I think for some reason that level of security makes it easier for me to write whatever the hell I want. Not that I don’t here as well, but I guess there will always be that level of unease when it comes to writing in a WP blog, because I feel like every word I post has to actually mean something so that people other than just myself might be interested in what I have to say.

See, I thought all of this up until now when I was looking at my blog, deciding that it was time to post an entry here saying that I had switched back over, and with a link leading back to my LJ, until I had this sudden urge to just write whatever. Here. Now. UCLA. Haha. That was clever, right?

I don’t know. So now I am just majorly confused and don’t know what to do. The one thing I do know is that I want to change this layout. And that I definitely should be sleeping right now, and I definitely was stupid in not listening to Richard tonight when he said I should have just bought my smoothie with a meal swipe because 1) free dinner 2m night, wtf was I thinking, 2) Wednesday night is free pizookie if you eat at BJs, again, what the hell was I thinking? and 3) I feel like there’s a high possibility I will not eat lunch tomorrow because I will just want to sleep until my alarm at 12:20 and will not have time for lunch. So yeah. I am stupid and Richard it’s all your fault for making me go with you to Bruin Caf! Haha. Just kidding, I know it’s mine =P

My plan is/was to finish my reading by tonight, except that it’s 3:35am and I still have 10 pages left to read (read: I only read 2 so far). So I don’t know what to do. Maybe I’ll just take it to bed and see how that goes. I basically spent all of my weekend sleeping, except for waking up to eat and do laundry. It’s amazing I got ANY work done at all, lol.

By the way, I love UCLA, since you’re going to ask, since everyone has been asking me. I guess I’ll continue loving it until my first essay is actually due, or maybe until I get my first essay/midterm grade back. I think that’s about the point when you should ask me how UCLA is. I might give you a more varied response.

(It’s funny because in tagging these entries, college still feels separate from school to me. I still have this urge to check college but not school, because I don’t really feel like the two are one yet. I still don’t know which to choose.)

Hitting the Books

I like my current reading pace. I’ve been reading a book a day, every day for the past… I don’t know how many days, but I think my pace is getting faster as well. Before I would take two days to finish books, but now I’m down to less than one. I think I used to read faster before… like way before. Back when I could read Harry Potter 4 in seven hours, or something crazy like that. I guess it’s not really that crazy, because some people read the books I read now in a day in three hours, but I’ve always been a slow reader. I only have the last book of the whole Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants series left. Then I have a book I bought from Half.com for $1 + shipping (good deal, right? And it’s completely brand new too!) and some books I ordered from Amazon that I’m worrying will arrive after I already leave for school. Maybe I should just have them shipped to me down there, but I don’t know my mailing address yet. I should look into that, I suppose. And that pack of books includes………….. dun dun dun dun! The dreaded Breaking Dawn!! Ew. I can’t believe I’m getting it but I know I just have to. Rissa even offered to sell me hers for $10, which is $2.64 cheaper than what I bought it on Amazon for, but I knew I just had to buy my own. It was just one of those things. I just have to read it, even though I already know what’s going to happen, even though I know it’s so awful, I just have to.

I think though after I finish this whole sisterhood business (tomorrow) and after I finish my one other book after that (Saturday), maybe I’ll start flipping through my East Asian book or something. It could be interesting. I’m pretty scared for UCLA. I have this paranoia that I’m going to flat out fail, and I can’t afford to let that happen. Screw rush and all that greek life stuff – I can’t focus on that now. I need to focus on my schoolwork. I figure there’ll be other quarters when I can look into it, or other things I can join and partake in in order to make connections, network, and whatnot. The networking bit scares the shit out of me. Makes me wonder if it’s something I really want to do, but then I guess you’d have to do it with anything you do.

So… I figured out what cheese it is that I have been looking for. Comes out to be about $9 USD, is what all the websites are saying, which is completely ridiculous T_T My mom bought a baguette and this other cheese tonight that’s kind of like the one I want, and it was delicious and I must have eatten at least half the baguette myself, and I’m feeling insanely fat right now. Ick.

I like doing nothing. Nothing = not even meeting people and hanging out and stuff. Honestly, I like lying in bed and reading books all day. I know it’s extremely anti-social but I don’t care. I figure that I won’t really have time slash want to be so anti-social to do that in college, so I might as well kick back and do it now.

Budgeting Myself

Je dois budget moi-même parce que la semaine dernière, j’ai depensé presque $350. Fuck. So yeah. Je dois un budget. Implementation commencera tout de suite. À ce moment.

Ways to Budget Myself:
-Ne mange plus du petit-déjeuner
-Ne mange plus le dîner avec Stephanie, sauf dans les excursions
-Ne depense plus que 6€ pour le déjeuner (ce va changer dans l’aveneur)
-Boire de l’eau. N’achete jamais les boissons.
-N’achete pas les choses à l’école
-Ne vas pas aux boulongeries
-Arrêter d’acheter les choses pour ma mère
-Souviens toujours que je n’ai qu’une baggage quand je retournerai chez moi

The last reason might not do me any good, but it would mean me spending extra money to also buy a new suitcase, and that would just be ça va pas T_T Gah. Mais le plupart de mon argent est pour mes nourritures, et c’est à cause de ma mère que j’avais mangé beaucoup beaucoup en France. C’est très très mal, pour ma santé aussi, parce que maintenent, je mange trop. Il faut que j’utilise ces methods lorsque je reste en France. L’Europe est très très cher maintenent.

My Birthday!

Yay! Today was good, even though Marissa successfully embarassed me, hahaha. I think I will come back to edit this post, because I should probably be studying for econ right now, but I wanted this time stamp :p Even though I had French tonight, I still dragged my family out to the city afterwards to eat dinner, but blah my Beef Katsu wasn’t that good. Guess it’s not the same as Japan, and when you’re really hungry after a whole day of shopping and not a lot of eating. Oh well. I guess I’ll just stick with my Beef Teriyaki next time ^^