Secret Number…

Someone tell me where this is from cuz I like it. I think it’s from The Wedding Date. Someone also said it’s from Nickleback’s song.

secret #1- sometimes i look cold just so you’ll hold me

secret #2- i need to hear that i’m beautiful

secret #3- all i want is someone that will love me endlessly

secret #4- life was so much easier when boys had cooties

secret #5- i’d rather argue with you than kiss someone else

secret #6- its my dream to have a guy call me at 3am just to say i love you

secret #7- smiles and makeup cover up so much these days

secret #8- its hard to have no one want to hold you when you feel alone

secret #9- sometimes all i want to do is run away

secret #10- i spend too much time thinking about things that will never happen and dressing up for the boy that will never care

secret #11- some things you can’t see with your eyes, only with your heart

secret #12- i talked louder and laughed harder just to get you to look my way

secret #13- i often ignore those who want me, and crave for those who don’t

secret #14- i might say that i hate him, but inside i would die without him

secret #15- all i want to hear is that you miss me when i’m not around

secret #16- i’m so scared that i’ll want to love you forever and you’ll only want me for a few moments in your life

secret #17- i’m slowly teaching myself how to breathe when i’m around you

secret #18- i’m the type of girl who will try not to like you, but i just end up falling even harder

secret #19- i didn’t ask to love you. i just do

secret #20- if you wait too long for the perfect moment then the perfect moment will pass you by

secret #21- happiness is the secret to all beauty, there is no beauty that is attractive without happiness

secret #22- if she takes the time to argue with you then she cares more about you than you think she does

secret #23- love is like a rumor. everyone talks about it, but only few know the truth

secret #24- its not that i can’t live without you. its that i don’t even want to try

secret #25- nobody is perfect so maybe before you judge other people you should first look at yourself

secret #26- my wish is always for you

secret #27- friends are the only thing a girl needs besides a closet full of clothes and a cute boy to kiss

secret #28- you are the last thing my heart expected

P.S. I’m totally obsessed with this layout, lol. I keep coming back.

1 Month

Spanks baby♥. (:
05/18/08

Timing

I know it’s been said before. I think I remember reading a story that talked a lot about it too, in the kind of conclusion. How everything, if you think about it, is all about timing. But I’m beginning to really feel the effects of how true that is. Like if you had asked me sooner, my entire life would be different. Had this been last semester, I wonder where we would be now. If we had actually started talking three years ago when we first met, things might be so much simplier.

Timing determines a lot of things. Like if you meet the perfect guy at the wrong time (I’m going off the story I remember reading, not my own life) sometimes that relationship just can’t happen. Timing gives you an opportunity, or starves you of it. It makes things more difficult, or more easy. Timing facilitates fate, perhaps. I don’t really know. I’m thinking as I write this.

I honestly feel really bad right now. I mean, when he asked, I maybe had an idea, but he didn’t say it specifically so I just took it for what it was. Would I have responded differently, had I known what I know now? Maybe. But at the same time, not really. What about if this was months before? Maybe back in October? Or even December, January, February, March? Even April. Definitely. But the reality is that this was in May. And really, it only takes a few minutes, a snap of your fingers, one facebook message, one question to change your entire life and perspective.

I think timing likes to play tricks on me, tease me, because my life is always this way. Timing for me knows no moderation. It throws things at me in singular, big, thrusts, giving me everything all at once and forcing me to choose.

Timing is never really kind to me…

Cheaters in Love

I just don’t get it. I really really don’t. Am I missing something here? You can’t fucking claim to love someone but then go and cheat on them. Especially when that person you love is about to die or is sick or on a hospital. How can you honestly call that love?

My fucking god, this is totally ridiculous! I am going to murder someone if I read one more story that’s like that. How can people even THINK this way?! And the thing that gets me more is that they all twist the story so that the girl forgives him anyway! And not even just that, it becomes the GIRL’S fault! THAT’S TOTALLY UNBELIEVABLE. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! They’re basically saying, “Well you kept pushing me away so you drove me to cheat on you.” Or something of the sort. They completely turn the tables so that the blames off the cheater. And you want to know something even MORE ridiculous? THESE AUTHORS ARE GIRLS. HOW THE FUCK CAN GIRLS THINK LIKE THIS? THIS IS COMPLETELY LUDICRIOUS HOW CAN PEOPLE EVEN THINK LIKE THIS?

Am I missing something here? Am I just extremely naive to think that it’s possible to love someone and not cheat on them? Am I being the ridiculous one in expecting that a guy is capable of keeping his goodies to himself and not give into the first temptation presented to him when that girl he loves is gone for a little while? Seriously? SERIOUSLY??????

Please, someone tell me I’m crazy. Tell me if I’m just being the dumb one in believing that people can love one another enough to know that there’s not anyone else they want (as in, not midway through undressing themselves with some other person).