Lost Thoughts

Usually I write a Thanksgiving post, but I guess I didn’t really do that this year. I guess it’s because I feel like they always sound the same, and I’m not even really the big of a celebrator of Thanksgiving. This year’s Thanksgiving didn’t even feel like any day out of the ordinary. Maybe I should start doing a year by year kind of thanks, to make it more unique. Like you know how you have new year’s resolutions, well you could have a this year’s thanks too.

I had a lot of things to say though, other stuff. Things that I thought of while writing in my head, as Ms. Satterstrom called it. I guess I do write in my head a lot. Stored somewhere in my mind, there are thousands and thousands of incompleted journal entries that pop in my head at the time and I never really have either the memory, the time, or the desire to actually write them down. Some of them do end up written down, but most don’t. I honestly don’t remember at all, not even the topic, of what I was going to say.

I actually don’t know why I’m blogging either. My first and probably most important final for me is in less than a week, but I haven’t really studied much over the weekend. Instead, I watched episodes 1-14 of this new drama that I found, and plan to watch 15 and 16 today, so I can “focus” and “study hard” this week following up to that damned, dreaded final. I’m not exactly sure how well that plan will pan out. Usually it doesn’t work out that way, especially since I have my essay due Friday, but I guess we’ll see. Wow. I just realized that this is my last week of classes – that’s freaking insane! I can’t believe how quickly time flew by. And I know that I keep saying that and saying that but seriously I can’t believe it, I have no idea where all of my time went this quarter. I always say stuff like “Wow, can you believe it’s already 7th week?” but it hasn’t really hit me until just now that HOLY SHIT after this week we won’t have these classes ever again! Nuts.

I scheduled last night. My schedule is still kind of ugly, despite the fact that I got all the classes that I wanted. I was the 20th person to sign up for my GE discussion that has a capacity of 20 people. I checked my enrollment and it also turns out that someone had dropped the econ discussion that I wanted, so I’m actually enrolled now, and not just on the waitlist That makes me 행복해~ (:

That’s another thing. Since I’ve been obsessed with this new drama and since I’ve been taking Korean classes, I am now thinking in like… konglish. Because half the stuff I’m hearing in Korean anyways, haha. But it’s weird because my Korean isn’t good enough so it doesn’t really work out that well. Oh well. I have to go now. I’m in the hotel room, supposed to be checked out (they keep checking back) and was waiting for my download to finish, and now that it has, I have to go. 안녕!

Cheated by France

You know, I tried several times to sit down and write a post about my experiences in France. Everyone keeps asking me how it was, and I never really know what to tell them. France was good, I guess. I feel kind of spoiled, to be honest. I feel kind of spoiled in the sense that it wasn’t really “the time of my life” and I never really had that whole “I still can’t believe this is real” thing going on for me. France wasn’t Japan, and I guess that might have disappointed me or something. It’s weird because I wasn’t disappointed that Japan wasn’t Shanghai too. Maybe I just couldn’t relate to France or something. Maybe it’s because I was itchy for the last half of my trip. Maybe it’s because I didn’t even really interact with any French people.

I don’t know what it is about the trip that makes me so… like this. I feel very ungrateful, but I can’t help the way I feel. France was good. It was fun, like the Bastille Bal and the Fireworks on Monteparnasse. I took tons of pictures (over 2,000) but then I realized that I took even more in Japan (over 3,000). I told myself I wouldn’t and couldn’t compare the two, because you simply can’t, but I guess one of the things that really bugged me about the trip was how much of a tourist I really felt. You would have thought I had felt more like a tourist in Japan than I did in France, seeing as I was actually living with a host family the entire time whereas Japan, that was not the case. However, going to France and researching all those study abroad programs beforehand while writing my essay on studying abroad really made me realize how lucky I was to have found and luckily stumbled upon EIL, choosing them without really doing much research into what exactly their program was about.

For me, France just couldn’t achieve the same magic that Japan did for me. By the last week, I was so itchy, so ready to come home, so wanting to jet off to China or UCLA instead. I came back for a day, then left for Hawaii with the family, and then suddenly it was like France never happened at all. A distant memory, or something of the sort. Nothing special in particular. I actually don’t have much desire to return to Europe at all, let alone France…

I guess I feel kind of cheated. Like I expected France to be so much more but it just wasn’t. It was just expensive, dirty, and itchy. Very itchy. I didn’t even make many great friends – only two I really want to actually try keeping in touch with. I mean, sure, I met people, but it’s just like my experience overall – fun, but not anything really special in particular.

So I guess that’s my ISA France blog. I actually came here with the intent to write about my experience with UC Riverside Bay Area people today, and how by the end of it, all I really wanted was my UCLA Bruins I met at orientation… I don’t think I’ve ever been this spirited about anything, but I really love UCLA.

08/28/08 Edit: I finally finished uploading all of my pictures from France! Although I do have quite a few albums on Facebook, I held off uploading a lot of my pictures, and uploaded them ALL onto Photobucket instead, so if you’re interested in seeing the uncut version of my photos from France, here it is.

Photobucket Album

It’s all organized by place too. Enjoy! Tell me what you think, if you’d like I know that Photobucket doesn’t entertain comments, but I certainly do, and so does my blog! Actually, the last set of my photo prints that I ordered from Shutterfly came today. I’m excited for the first two. And I’m also excited for my school textbooks, haha.

En France

Les endoits que j’ai déjà visité:

-Hôtel des Invalides
-Musée d’Orsay
-Musée Rodin
-Musée Picaso
-Jardin des Plantes
-Le Tour Eiffel
-Jardin du Tuileries
-Le Louvre
-Versailles
-Normandy
-Mont Saint Michel
-Montmarte
-Montparnesse
-Place du Tertre
-Saint Germain des-Prés
-Galeria La Fayette
-Au Printemps
-Champs-Elysées
-Arc de Triumph
-Le Bastille

Les endoits òu je veux aller:

-Notre Dame
-Le Pompidou
-Marché aux Puces
-Loire Valley

Est-ce qu’il y a des recommendations? Je pense que je suis assez muséed out, et j’ai seulement peut-être quatre jours encore pour faire les choses que je veux.

#1 thing I’ll miss from France: les bagettes =9

Budgeting Myself

Je dois budget moi-même parce que la semaine dernière, j’ai depensé presque $350. Fuck. So yeah. Je dois un budget. Implementation commencera tout de suite. À ce moment.

Ways to Budget Myself:
-Ne mange plus du petit-déjeuner
-Ne mange plus le dîner avec Stephanie, sauf dans les excursions
-Ne depense plus que 6€ pour le déjeuner (ce va changer dans l’aveneur)
-Boire de l’eau. N’achete jamais les boissons.
-N’achete pas les choses à l’école
-Ne vas pas aux boulongeries
-Arrêter d’acheter les choses pour ma mère
-Souviens toujours que je n’ai qu’une baggage quand je retournerai chez moi

The last reason might not do me any good, but it would mean me spending extra money to also buy a new suitcase, and that would just be ça va pas T_T Gah. Mais le plupart de mon argent est pour mes nourritures, et c’est à cause de ma mère que j’avais mangé beaucoup beaucoup en France. C’est très très mal, pour ma santé aussi, parce que maintenent, je mange trop. Il faut que j’utilise ces methods lorsque je reste en France. L’Europe est très très cher maintenent.

And the List Goes On

In order to ensure my sanity for the next week or so, or maybe just today since I’m feeling extremely stressed, I need to make a to-do list of all the things I have to do. I can’t believe that I’m leaving for France in less than 1 week – so insane. I can never manage to wrap my head around these things. Even once I land there, it still probably won’t really hit me. I have so much to do though. I’m suddenly really stressed, or maybe I’m feeling this way because I only got 5.5 hours of sleep last night and am exhausted. That’s not the mention the many times I’ve stayed up till 4/5 for the past week. Gah. Stupid. I did this prom night too, and was dead tired the next day. Thus, I’m extremely cranky right now. I seriously canNOT interact with anyone for a few hours now, cuz every time I hear my parents talking to me or my brother making some kind of annoying brother noise, I flip out. GAH. GAH. I CAN’T STANDDD THISSS and it’s not even like I can just go back to sleep either cuz I’ve tried and I am so SO… *breathe* Okay. List.

To-do before Paris:
[x] Pack for Paris (06/27)
[/] Buy a birthday gift for Christine (this might not get done)
[ ] Pack desk stuff (yes I’m separating these so I can later feel accomplished)
[x] Sort through shoes (06/22)
[x] Sort through clothes (06/22)
[ ] Pack stuff in bedroom
[ ] Pack remaining clothes
[ ] Pack everything else (you’d be surprised)
[x] Take TKD picture (06/22)
[x] Print TKD picture (06/22)
[ ] Send transcripts from COM
[x] Send stuff for BruinCard (06/22)
[x] Buy games for iPod (06/27)
[x] Download songs for iPod (06/24)
[x] Pack carry on bag (06/27)
[x] Find a notebook for classes (06/25)
[x] Find cell phone charger (08/27)
[x] Buy gift for host family! (06/25)
[x] Take AlcoholEdu class (06/19)
[x] Submit Hepatitis B thing (06/19)
[x] Send HS transcript (06/22)
[x] Buy Victoria’s Secrets goodies (06/25)
[x] Select photos to print for college (08/27)
[x] Print photos for college (08/27)
[x] Buy UCLA Den Pack (07/03)
[x] Pay UCLA Housing Fee (07/07)

To-do before College:
[x] Buy bed stuff (08/27)
[ ] Figure out how to decorate my room
[x] Buy laptop (07/31)
[x] Figure out classes to take (07/07)
[x] Figure out possible extra major (07/07)
[ ] Separate stuff I want to bring
[x] Buy desk lamp (09/01)

There’s probably a ton more to do before I go to college, and probably things I left out for before I go to Paris too, but this is all I can think of for now, and you bet you I’ll be coming back to update this with progress. Maybe I’ll even add in dates when I check things off, just for shits and giggles. Ya know.

What Do You Blog About?

Earlier today, I was pretty intent on blogging. But now I just don’t know what to blog about. I mean, am I supposed to write about my day, what I did, what happened? Or am I supposed to write about my thoughts. Like what I’m thinking, what about this, what I’m feeling? I suppose that if the events in my life were exciting and interesting enough to write about, then that would probably be all I would write. But maybe blog entries are like essays. You can’t just have all facts, otherwise really, what’s the point? I don’t know.

So. Tomorrow I have my AP French test tomorrow, which yes, I kind of have studied for, but honestly, it’s not much. I guess I just don’t really know how to study. I feel like I’m just going to walk in to fail – like why did I even pay $80 to take this test anyways? Why did I ever think that would be a good investment of my money? Besides, can’t I just take the placement test at orientation? I’m already planning on taking 4 years of Korean in college anyways, so what does it really matter? I heard that some people at LA even have to drop some of their AP credits that they received. I don’t really get it, but I guess I could kind of see how that could happen? Not sure. More credits would give me a higher priority for registering classes though. Hmm…

I’m kind of torn now, since eventually school = college for me, but right now I have those as two separate catergories for this blog. I guess I’ll just log it as school, and then make college just be like college admissions process kind of thing. I guess that would work. Since I have AP French tomorrow, I am excused from third and forth period. I could sign myself out of 2nd (I’m 18 now!) but I don’t think I will. Just because why bother? What would I do anyways? Maybe I will, I don’t know. I could sign myself out of 1st too but I want to see Ippolito’s really efficent way of cramming for Macro. I want 5s on my econ and calc exams… I actually need a 5 on Calc. Blah >_<

Why do I always talk about school? I guess it’s because I don’t really want just everyone knowing everything else. However, it seems that lately everyone knows at least a little part of my life, even if I don’t know them very well. Um. Well. I just found out today that I actually do need a visa to go to France, so thank god I checked, otherwise I would have been screwed. I also realized that the rest of my tuition for the program is due May 10th, so thank God I stumbled upon that piece of information too!

Everyone keeps saying I must be excited for college, except I’m not really. Maybe it has to do with my whole habit of always dreading really exciting things right before they come, but I feel like right now, I don’t really have to care about my grades and I can go out and do things without worrying like oh my god what if that affects my GPA? But once I get into college, it won’t be like that anymore.

I’m donneeee I don’t know. Good weekend Happy birthday Christine!! I have AP French tomorrow. And I wrote this entry like hourss ago, but never got around to finishing it until just now.

Excited All-around

No Friday Five this week. Not for the lack of questions, but moreso for my own lack of interest. Oh well.

I went to Borders today. Got 3 new books. If you know me at all, you’ll know I’m super excited with this new development!! I am SO ready to ready them. Except that I promised myself I would finish outlining Physics and start outlining Econ. What a bitch. I was thinking about it and I realized that this is probably my only semester that won’t matter. Goodness, that’s sad. I don’t know why I’m still working so hard, but I mean, no one likes to fail! How can you be happy with just a B?

With that said, I am so unbelievably jealous of all the Branson people. Their 2nd trimester has ended so that means NO SCHOOL. So ridiculous. I would say I wish I stayed but I don’t. I’m pretty happy that I transferred. Even if I am stuck here outlining for Physics tests I’m going to fail and Econ tests that… I don’t know. Lol. But the sentence sounded incomplete if I didn’t say something about Econ too – do you know that feeling?

So I decided to take a stab at editing Her Wish, or at least the first nineteen chapters of it. This is not to say that I have suddenly become unlazy and decided to do something to my past stories for a change, but it’s more so because there’s this scholarship where I can submit the first nineteen chapters (which I really combined into 5 chapters…) and possibly win. Or possibly not. Probably not. I feel like my story doesn’t have much meaning and effect unless you have it all. Oh well. Worse comes to worse, I’ll have a lot better first nineteen chapters, lol.

I got my forms for France for ISA! That got me pretty excited. Not that I wasn’t already, haha This entry is all over the place…

Boredom Will Be the Death of Me

I’M SO BORREEEEDDDDD. Remind me again why I told Joanne I want to sit at home and do nothing!!! Ahhhhhhhh. I mean. It’s better than school, for sure, but I’m bored and hella thirsty and I can only drink so much flavorless water before I go insane. I wantt soddaaaa or jamba jamba juice

I’m beginning to rethink my decision about signing up with ISA this summer, but at the same time, I guess there’s not really much I can do… and then on the second thought, what the freaking ever! I’m sure I’ll have fun anyways, but still it’s a little nerve-racking to think I’m going to be with college students and I feel like omg college, that’s so much older than me! When really it’s not, but I feel like it is and like I’m totally unprepared socially… even though a lot of my friends tend to be older than me anyways and I mean, they’re still the same people!

Blah. Phim interviewed me for ficlics. It’s kind of short, lol, but it definitely took a lot longer than it looks like it did. I was really surprised though when she asked, especially since I don’t even write fanfiction anymore. Looking through that forum though brings back memories. Like awww I remember when I wanted to write about DongBang boys too! It’s funny actually; when February 6th came this year, I still remembered, “Oh. It’s Yunho’s birthday!” Love. It’s kind of like whenever July 28th comes around and I know that something is that day, even if I don’t remember right away that it’s Minwoo’s birthday.

I should be studying for Econ. Really. GAH. Microeconomics drives me insane. SCHOOOLL. Ick. I think I maybe did ONE scholarship application during this whole break. Way to be productive, Alyssa.

On the second thought, maybe I’ll go find something else to read…

Step Up 2′s Dilemna

I’ve thought about it, and Step Up 2 really is just like any other mediocre story that I’ve read online. The plot is not very clear, the chemistry between the characters is kind of just non-existent, to be honest, and the events are unrealistic. Things like Andy’s speech at the end was corny, the way that the brother just suddenly changed his mind at the end was out of character, the beliefs of characters and the things that the scriptwriter wanted for characters’ to feel were unfounded (like what’s-his-face’s fascination with Andy), and not all of the tools and possibilities that the movie itself held were exploited. There was no synchronization of both the ballet/jazz/modern stuff that MBS or whatever they are teaches at their school and hip hop. It was all just hip hop, which is totally unrealistic. And what about the daily lessons after school with the brother? Those pretty much just stopped once Andy was kicked out of the crew. AND THE GUY’S JACKET WAS COMPLETELY DRY AT THE VERY END EVEN AFTER THEY HAD JUST DANCED IN THE RAIN. Anyways. I think the main thing was the relationship between Chase and Andy. Is that his name? Chase? It just didn’t really make sense. I couldn’t tell if she liked him or hated him in the beginning. I mean it seemed like she was annoyed by him, but at the same time the director knew that they had to get her to like him. It didn’t make any sense. I mean she was hot and cold with him. There wasn’t a good build up to them being together, and there wasn’t even really much of them together. You can tell that it’s all acting.

It was an okay movie. As I said, mediocre. But to be honest, there are so many fics online that have much better plots, character development, and consistencies than Step Up 2. The idea of having it be the little sister was a good one – a nice way to make a sequel while having all new characters. I don’t know. It was okay……

1. Do you ever wonder if the way you see things visually aren’t how other people see them? I actually have wondered this. Like color hues. How do we really know the TRUE colors? I mean obviously people look at the same thing and notice different things about it as well. It’s just like reading a story and seeing the story through a different scope than someone else. You pick up things that maybe the person next to you won’t pick up, and them the same. And then of course there are the people with the worse eyesight… I wonder what establishes 20/20 vision anyways. Like what the basis of that was. What if the world was really meant to be seen blurry…? Hahaha. Okay that’s a stretch, but still a kind of interesting thought, ne?
2. What kind of sounds are the most annoying? A lot a lot a lot! I absolutely treasure silence. So… well nails against a chalkboard, typical, but I mean that doesn’t REALLY get to me. I can’t stand the sound of people chewing gum. The sound of people biting their nails. I can’t stand it when people talk while I’m still taking a test. I can’t stand it when people talk while I’m trying to read, especially if I’m in between them. I think it’s really annoying when people put their phones on speaker phone. I hate that sound of when people burp like in their throat. It’s still so gross. Um, lots of other things too, lol.
3. When walking through a store, do you shop with your hands by touching/feeling the texture of things? Haha, yes. I love the feel of soft things. I always have to touch the fabric =] Also I just get bored and need something to do with my hands so… yeah.
4. If you could only smell three scents for the rest of your life, what would they be? Oh, that’s extremely hard, and what is classified as a scent anyways? The smell of food, especially baked food and fruits, the smell of nature, like fresh air and flowers, and people’s unique smells. You know. That special scent everyone has to them that’s uniquely them.
5. What sorts of things do you savor when eating them? The taste. Perhaps the quantity, if that makes any sense.

FictionPress updated! It’s kind of cool, though not much different. I’m just happy to see that they’re still maintaining that site You know, I realized while Fp was down that Fp is like… inelastic. There really is no alternative for it. Haha. Econ. (:

I finally just sucked it up and submitted my application for Paris, France this Summer! I’ve settled on ISA, which is totally contradictory to my last post about my summer plans, but about an hour after I wrote that entry, I became really weary of the apartments for AIFS and they just really bothered me… and then I found ISA. ISA is actually a lot like CEA, but I feel like it’s a smaller program. There are only 2 different summer sessions for their program, and there are about 30 people in each session, so it’s not like CEA where you’re more of just a number and there are so many different classes, sessions, programs, etc. going on that it’s totally just mixed. The dates for ISA also work out more nicely than AIFS, because with AIFS, I would have to bring all my clothes for Hawaii too, and I would be on the plane for like over a day. I’d have to come back from Paris to SFO, then fly from SFO to Hawaii… all by myself and with like 6 weeks’ worth of clothes and luggage, plus souvenirs from France. I know I was excited about going to London, but really you only get to go to London for like 1 day, and that’s just not enough to explore everything about such a wondrous city as London. I think maybe I’ll go there next summer or something.

I could probably say a lot more, but I won’t. Gah. I just want to read. Honestly, I was pretty pissed after getting lost twice coming home from Christine’s, and dealing with slow and stupid drivers, and driving in general, etc. etc. I just want to READ man. Thank goodness for Fictionpress. Oh. Let’s say that again. I don’t think the importance of that message was conveyed in my presentation. Thank GOD for Fiction Press.

Summer Plans and More

I’m beginning to realize how dumbed down and mean and crude these last few entries in my blog have been. I wonder who’s reading them. I guess I’m always so paranoid about that. I went through google about a week ago trying to delete every and any thing that came up valid when I searched my name. It’s just really… *fill in the blank* I don’t know. Maybe I’m paranoid a college is going to search me on google. Like they have the time to look up each and every one of their applicants. I’m not sure why I care though. It’s not like I have much to hide, or even much on here to begin with, but thinking about things like that then prompts me to think about things like if I didn’t know me, and wasn’t me (ha ha) how would I perceive me just looking through some of the things I have online and have made public about myself? It’s weird, trying to think like that, and really hard.

Okay well first, friday five.

1. Do you consider yourself to be a good housekeeper? Why or why not? I’m probably not… at all. It’ll probably drive my roommate next year insane, but what can I do? I tend to get really messy and lazy… but then like once every month, I go crazy and can’t take it anymore and clean up like a mad woman.
2. Are there any household chores that you enjoy doing? If so, what and why? Cleaning is actually a nice thing to do, when I have time for it. I like knowing that I am getting rid of my useless garbage that’s just taking up space, and getting organized.
3. Which household chore frustrates/angers you the most? Well, I don’t like doing the dishes, because it’s gross. I tried scrubbing mac & cheese off the pot about a week ago and it was disgusting and annoying and time consuming. I don’t mind laundry. But I don’t like touching the garbage either…
4. When doing household chores, what do you do to make them seem less of a “chore”? Nothing?
5. Which chore do you find yourself doing most often, and why? Cleaning, and as I said, that’s not very often.

So I’ve been debating my summer options for a while now. I think I’m hovering between two choices now, but I’m pretty sure I’m leaning towards one over the other. At first I was really tempted to go to China, perhaps Nanjing, or Shanghai again, or Beijing if I just sucked up their accents, like I’m going to force myself to do eventually, but my parents told me I should go somewhere new, and I’m always a bit iffy about taking Chinese courses, since I don’t really fit into a level, and am honestly a bit scared to find where I fit. After having taking Mandarin for 7 years, you’d think I’d be more confident in my Chinese skills, and I know that I can speak it, and I know that I can understand it, and I mean I can even watch ISWAK and understand about 90% of it, but still. I don’t know. Just basic things, that I know I’m missing. Then I was considering Korea, because my friend is going there this summer, but my Korean is just flat out bad. And all the programs there go for too long. I was originally looking for programs in Taiwan, as some may know, especially with all the ISWAK promos there (hahahah geez, just make me stop talking!) but then I could not really find anything in the summer, and I realized how impractical that would be, seeing as I only know simplified Chinese, and my knowledge of traditional is very very limited. I was then considering London, because that seemed really cool too, and then I could also take classes more than just culture, more like international relations or creative writing or something, but I know that I should go to France to practice my French. So to Paris we go! I think I’m going to go with AIFS, for a number of reasons (I have done extensive research on this) that I will not list here because I know it will bore anyone reading this, if they haven’t grown bored already.

… on the second thought, I don’t care! You’re reading this so you must want to know. The two programs I’m considering are AIFS and CEA. In my research, I have looked at AIFS, CEA, CIEE (only to find out that you have to have at least 1 semester of college, and APs don’t count), Oxbridge (farrr too expensive), Edu Culture, CLERC (China), USAC (in the boonies), AFS, Explorica (too touristey for me), CSA, EIL (of course!!), and one other whose name I can’t remember. The reason I’m choosing AIFS is… 1) The excursions. The trip starts out in London, and then there’s 2 other optional excursions to see St. Malo and Mont St. Michael and to the Loire Valley. I think since I’ll be in France, I should definitely take advantage of that and see as much as possible, and I will also be able to see London, like I wanted. 2) There are lots of cultural activities that students are encouraged to participate in, daily, so I’d like to take advantage of those. 3) It’s in Paris, so there will be plenty to learn and do. 4) University or Sorbornne is supposedly really good. 5) I can take more than just French language lessons, but also culture classes. 6) The apartments seem nice enough, though I think this is also a reason why I’m holding back on applying just yet… 7) As weird as it may seem, with as much freedom as they give you, I think that this program is the most group oriented-ish and kind of community-like (aside from EIL, of course, but EIL’s kind of a different story…) I was considering CEA, because I’m thinking their apartments look a lot nicer, or I could participate in a homestay, or stay in the dorms, but I think that was an aspect of the program that I didn’t really like – that there were too many options. I guess it’s because I know what it’s like not to be able to make friends because other people have already spent so much time together, and I don’t want to go through that again, especially in a foreign country. Plus, their activities are more weekly, I could only take French language classes, I couldn’t go to London, I could only go on one other excursion in France, which I wouldn’t be able to choose, etc. Studying abroad, especially in France, is extremely pricey though. AIFS is one of the more expensive ones, but it’s also in closer alignment with what I want in a program, and I’m hoping I’ll be able to get some scholarships as well.

I think I’ve thoroughly bored my reader now, if I had any to begin with, or still have any. I can’t explain why I like friday fives, or why I look forward to them. I spent all last night creating a custom database on Zoho for myself to record all of the completed online fics I’ve read since maybe 2004/2005-ish. There are over 200, and I noticed a bunch missing while I was doing it, despite my best efforts to keep track. It’s a little inefficient though, since I can’t search, and I can’t view all the items on the same page either. I’m thinking that I’ll just stick to my old-fashioned text file anyways, but it’s there if I ever decide to change my mind. See, decisions like this confuse me. I can’t decide if I welcome change, or cower from it.