Moving Back?

Hello world! I think I might be migrating back.  For some reason, my FTP information for my Byethost  website doesn’t work anymore. :[ That on top of the fact that I deciided to no longer create my own themes and just use the pre-made WordPress things, I think I’ll be coming back to here.  Originally I had wanted to set up shop for a new kind of blog, which I’m still leaving in the bucket for consideration, but for now I’ll just be here and touching some stuff up here. I don’t know. I guess I still kind of like the option of being able to create my own layout if I want to, but I feel like the WordPress pre-made themes are more blog-like and therefore will contribute to my efforts to revive my “blog.”

I guess my other problem is that I’m more of a private person anyway so I don’t quite like others knowing my business, which defeats the whole purpose of a blog. We shall see…

Procrastination… Sort of

I’m trying out the new WordPress! It’s looking pretty snazzy so far – I’m excited

1. Do you like the look of your country’s currency (bills and coins)? They’re getting more colorful and cooler, so I guess they’re okay.
2. Regardless of their actual value, do you like bills or coins better? Bills.
3. What is your favorite foreign currency? And why? I’d have to say euros… maybe. I like the coins – they’re think and cool. The bills are colorful and distinguishable, and the coins are different colors and unique too.
4. Do you collect coins or bills? Elaborate. Not really. I have money left over from when I went to China, Japan, and France, but it’s not like I keep them to collect them or anything.
5. Do you think human society could make do completely without money? Explain. Nope. We tried before and obviously failed, so why would it work again? Without money, less people would be able to trade stuff and exchange possessions because in order to get something new, I would have to have something that the other person wanted in exchange. Money, however, is more liquid, and thus makes transactions like these easier, and more frequent.

Aren’t I supposed to be studying for my math final that’s in 12 1/2 hours? Yes. Probably. Am I procrastinating? You bet I am. I even watched My Little Bride with Hiromi today, haha. It was a very nice break though – love that movie. I just didn’t like the thought of having to do math for hours straight again, like I did on Wednesday and sort of on Tuesday. I needed a breather I guess, but now I’m debating whether or not to go to Puzzles later tonight and have an ice cream too. I am soooo tired it’s ridiculuos. And I have too many swipes left over for this week It’s because I cooped myself in my room just to study, and because I was lazy, but that’s more of the unofficial reason, haha.

I have a math final tomorrow morning, Korean final Monday morning, and final paper & in-class GE Cluster final on Thursday. We just got the prompt yesterday, and it sounds pretty much exactly the same as the other two essays we wrote during the quarter. I look forward to it. And now I have to go. Because I need to study, for real now. I’m on chapter 7 though, if that makes my situation any better, meaning that I finished practicing for chapters 8, 9, and 11. I also went over my first midterm, so I’m nearing the end of this baby and I’m going to do amazing. Just watch.

No man. I’m serious this time… I need to be.

Torn Between Two

I am torn between using my LJ and using my WP as my blog. I don’t know what to do anymore, lol. On one hand, I really like this blog. I like WP a lot – its layout and everything. But the layouts are so ugly. The ones on LJ are ugly too but it’s easy to get your own layout and customize it or whatever. Another thing about LJ is the friends only thing, which is nice, not because I’m paranoid but just because it’s nice to know who’s reading my LJ and who’s not, and I think for some reason that level of security makes it easier for me to write whatever the hell I want. Not that I don’t here as well, but I guess there will always be that level of unease when it comes to writing in a WP blog, because I feel like every word I post has to actually mean something so that people other than just myself might be interested in what I have to say.

See, I thought all of this up until now when I was looking at my blog, deciding that it was time to post an entry here saying that I had switched back over, and with a link leading back to my LJ, until I had this sudden urge to just write whatever. Here. Now. UCLA. Haha. That was clever, right?

I don’t know. So now I am just majorly confused and don’t know what to do. The one thing I do know is that I want to change this layout. And that I definitely should be sleeping right now, and I definitely was stupid in not listening to Richard tonight when he said I should have just bought my smoothie with a meal swipe because 1) free dinner 2m night, wtf was I thinking, 2) Wednesday night is free pizookie if you eat at BJs, again, what the hell was I thinking? and 3) I feel like there’s a high possibility I will not eat lunch tomorrow because I will just want to sleep until my alarm at 12:20 and will not have time for lunch. So yeah. I am stupid and Richard it’s all your fault for making me go with you to Bruin Caf! Haha. Just kidding, I know it’s mine =P

My plan is/was to finish my reading by tonight, except that it’s 3:35am and I still have 10 pages left to read (read: I only read 2 so far). So I don’t know what to do. Maybe I’ll just take it to bed and see how that goes. I basically spent all of my weekend sleeping, except for waking up to eat and do laundry. It’s amazing I got ANY work done at all, lol.

By the way, I love UCLA, since you’re going to ask, since everyone has been asking me. I guess I’ll continue loving it until my first essay is actually due, or maybe until I get my first essay/midterm grade back. I think that’s about the point when you should ask me how UCLA is. I might give you a more varied response.

(It’s funny because in tagging these entries, college still feels separate from school to me. I still have this urge to check college but not school, because I don’t really feel like the two are one yet. I still don’t know which to choose.)

To Dos

Things I have to do before tonight is over and I go to sleep (seeing as I haven’t done anything but read and go to Tae Kwon Do so far):

[ ] Study for Calc test
[x] Find quotes and focus for in class write tomorrow
[ ] Chinese summary
[x] Gather a list of the teacher reccs I need Stew to do for me
[x] Finish Calc homework
[ ] Maybe start on Physics assignments #1-3
[x] Scholarship due tomorrow

But. I still haven’t finished book 3 of this Moostella series (though I am on the epilogue), so we’ll see how it all goes. I probably won’t get it all done. Chinese will probably be left for the car ride into the city. The quotes thing may not happen and I’ll just walk in cold. Sort of.

I kind of like this layout. But I kind of wish that I had gone with Blogger. Man. I should have followed my instinct. I’m kind of getting fed up with random wordpress bloggers hopping on in here on my writing tagged entries and thinking they’re the shit… honestly.

The Essence of Writing

I wonder if people usually write entries and then title them, or title them and then write them. Related to that, I wonder how many people actually sit down and know what they’re going to blog about before they actually “blog” it. And then I begin to wonder what the answers to those two questions would be if I were to answer them. Huh. Interesting thoughts.

So about an hour after I wrote that last entry, or probably less, I was just sitting in front of my laptop with my head in my palm and just kind of blanking out while listening to this one song that I found on shuffle and that prompted me to write that entry in the first place. And then, I’m not sure if it was sudden or what, but an idea, or rather, multiple ideas that I had been turning in my head for months, came to me. After reading lots of interviews and insights by some of my favorite authors and how they write their stories and build them up I’ve begun to realize this common theme/thread between them all in that it’s not necessarily all their thoughts that dictate the directions of their stories, but more so their characters’ personalities and intuitive feelings that set and change the flow of events. Gathering this, I’m determined to try something new, as I think I do with every new fic I write. With Her Wish, I tried to go in not necessarily with a plot set in stone, or even a plan for the later chapters of my fics at all, just a beginning and an end with everything else in between no where near being decided, allowing myself to plan and shape it along the way. I can’t remember what it was for Forbidden Fate, but I think I wrote that wanting a side story after it was done. And now for this fic, whatever it will be called, or if I even decide that I have enough substance, motivation, and a story to tell at all, I will try to really get to know my characters, their personalities, what they would do in certain situations, etc. etc. and go more with my instinct and intuition that what I personally would wish to happen in my own life. Granted, there will be a lot of that too, but for right now I’d like to think it’s already begun that way.

Sorry if this made absolutely no sense. Actually, I’m not really sorry, but whatever. On a non-fictional note, I’m really annoyed by certain people and I just feel like my efforts and my empathy is just not worth it anymore. What the freaking ever. Do what you want, feel what you want, but if you’re going to half-ass anything just leave me out of it. It’s all up to you now. No more me trying to help anymore. If you want something to happen, you better take the bull by the horn and make it happen cuz you’re on your own now. I’m done trying to help.

A Post So Soon

I don’t know why but I feel like posting here, despite the fact that I really have nothing to write about. Ah yes, I remember now. Good old WordPress with no damn underline! Honestly folks, where is the logic? Lost, I suppose.

I’m trying to read. I really want to read. But honestly I just can’t find the energy to do it and dive into a whole new world and get myself to stay there. For some reason, it’s just not working right now. This is probably a telltale sign that I should go and get some work done, as I’m useless for anything else. Am I the only one who ever gets this way? (I can’t be) Where you want to read something like you start a book or you start a movie and suddenly like 5-10 minutes into it you just feel so lazy to continue and go through all the motions? Like you want to know what happens but you just feel too lazy to wait and see, even though it takes absolutely no effort on your part but your time to do so? Am I even making any sense here?

Anyways, that’s how I feel at the moment. It kind of really sucks! I’m thinking this layout selection won’t last long because eventually it’ll just be this one really long, skinny column of all my entries and that will just bother me, but we’ll have to wait and see. WP also allows CSS editing so that allows for much more customization as well… if I’m feeling up for it. Then again, I don’t even have Photoshop anymore

I’ve decided not to tag entries; just to use categories. And damn it, I keep misspelling “categories.”

Hello world!

Well hello WordPress, too.

I don’t know. I am so indecisive it’s insane. I kind of do want to use blogger but then again WORDPRESS! Lol, I just have no idea. I mean, I set up my blogger account and everything but now I’m looking through WordPress themes and of course I love them, but then again I can always use those themes for my surveys blog instead. I really like the comments and kind of set up of blogger, and how it’s connected to Google and everything so it’s just really easy for everyone, but then again I just really don’t know…

WordPress is kind of like my comfort zone, I’ve used it so much in the past. Then again, I don’t really get the difference between WordPress’ categories and tags. I mean why add tags if you already have categories? Now I’m confused as to which I should be using…